"Why you no smile, mommy ?" - a child's simple question but no answer. Where do I begin, wonders the mother.
I worry b'coz I am your mommy sweetheart and it is my job to give you the best that I can. It is is very hard to be a parent, I knew this before I became one. However, as I held you, my beautiful bundle of joy in my arms; my joy overtook my worries - the skies seemed ever so blue and birds were chirping louder too. Then reality came rushing in too.
I want to show you that our city is so beautiful and it has so much history associated with it. The badly kept roads and excessive construction may blur your sight to the beauty that exists but rest assured my love they are there. I want to take you for a walk on the beach; because we have a coastline that we boast of in children's geography textbooks. However, the sight of garbage and people's 'who cares' attitude toward this behaviour leaves me dumb founded. I want to hear to shout out in glee as you swing the swings and throw your hands in the air as you come down the slide. But alas my little one, all the parks I frequented as a child have either been brought down to make place for residential towers or remain ignored and uncared for.
These are still minute issues my dear, I worry most for your safety. The newspapers and news channels, they scare me; they tell me of everything is going wrong in this world. So I worry. It scares me that when I put you into you school bus and send you off, I am not there to make you you are safe from some stranger driver/ conductor/ cleaner. I wonder how you are doing in school; is the teacher bullying you around and treating you wrong. I want to believe people, irrespective of man or woman, will not harm my child. There will be no stalkers, molesters and rapists at any point in your life. But that guarantee I do not have. I want to get you to believe that people are good; that mankind has not forgotten being human. Why does this seem rather difficult ?
I do know this much though, you are more precious than life itself for me. I will be by your side even when you think I am not there. It is my job to keep you safe and a job at which I refuse to fail. I will smile when I see you giggle innocently, your happiness will make all my worries go away. I promise to keep you smiling always my love... I promise to keep you smiling always !!!
